If You VALUE the “Happiness” of your PAST to the Peace, tranquility, Love and Happiness of your Present, then you are not WORTH being in the PRESENT.
Free yourself from your PAST, so your Present and Future can be BRIGHT, only then you can see the Sparkle in the FUTURE that awaits you!!
If you keep referring to your Past, you do not allow your present to breath in fresh air to enable it mature and become bright enough to carry you to the FUTURE.
Here is a clue. When Jesus said “it is finished”, He meant that the Past is now PAST, He gave us the key to the future, for us to anticipate and live in the future.
When God forgives you of your sin, He has forgiven your Past, He wants you to go and Live a clean and good life in the Present and hope for a Bright and more comfortable future. but many of Us still hold on to the Past. This does not really show your commitment to God.
You keep remembering the past when you Pray, you keep relishing on rehearsing the Past in your mind. Let me tell you one Word – “Let GO” of the Past and have a Brighter present and a Sparkling future.
Get your mindset out of that zone and learn to forgive yourself because God has already forgiven you.
If you still live in the past, Well I am so so so so so so so so Sorry for you. You are only trying to make God a Liar, and you should know the consequences by now.
Be wise and show that with the Wisdom that God has bestowed on you, you can always be grateful and Give Him Thanks, for a Thankful heart remembers not the past. Don’t start making unnecessary excuses once more.